today i did something that was quite an accomplishment for myself. i rode a bicycle all the way from my house to my job.

i know, that doesn't sound like anything astounding. but take into consideration that i learned how to ride a bicycle yesterday. now it seems like a much bigger deal.

i left home two hours early, because i wasn't sure how long the trip would take, and i got to work an hour and fifteen minutes before my shift started. and that was even with me fucking up, crashing, taking the wrong roads and having to back-track. so i think that's marvelous. it was incredible to be riding that damn thing, even though my legs are throbbing, it was raining as all hell, and my pants are covered in mud. but it was freedom; freedom like i've never experienced before, living at home. it's something i've never been able to hold onto, because my parents were overbearing and overprotective, even though i think they thought they were pretty liberal. i still have a lot of bitterness, anger, and resentment about them. i don't think i should, but i've noticed that we get along much much better now that i don't see them everyday. that's to be expected, though.

so i have to leave for work in a bit. i'm using kat's computer again because i didn't want to wait an hour at work. i'm enjoying my new-found freedom and responsibilities so much. i hope this feeling lasts, but i'm not deluded nor naive enough to say "it'll always be this wonderful!" because i know one day i'm going to be tired and frustrated, because i'm a highschool drop out, working at mcdonalds. i know one day my legs will be too tired to pedal, and i know one day jackie will get on my nerves too much. i know one day, this won't be wonderful.

but for now, i'll ignore that, and just relish the feeling of the air curling itself in and out of my hair.

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