i'm really tired. i finally have two days off from work, two days where i don't have to run any errands whatsoever. so i plan on sleeping in until at least noon. long gone are the days where i could sleep until four in the afternoon. no, now i'm too used to waking up before PM.

life sucks. no, that's not fair nor true. i'm in a very misanthropic mood today. it's likely a combination of too much work, not having any money, being short on rent, and pissy customers. i hate the whole of humanity currently.

i talked to diana (kent's mother) last night. as soon as i got the internet back i was informed of a rumour stating that kent's body had been found and blah blah blah. i tried to not get my hopes up until after i'd gotten it confirmed, but i did and it turned out to be nothing at all. i think i find myself hating him more with each day that passes. it's been over half a year and the son of a bitch still hasn't made anything clear to anyone. i don't think i believe in ghosts anymore, because i'm sure if anybody would've come back from the dead, it would've been this fucker.

but diana thinks she might feel like coming down to new orleans to visit this summer, and i told her she's welcome to stay with me while she's here. i'd love to see diana again; i never realize how much i miss her until i get to speak with her again.

egh. i had other things i wanted to say. but i'm too tired and lacking energy or coherency to verbalize them. so i'm going to go to sleep. goodnight.

at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment i knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe
but i still left….

28 April 2002 at 1:31 am | No Comments »
the daily things

i haven't updated in over a month, and while i'd love to tell you that the reason for that is because i've been fabulously busy with my extraordinary life, it isn't so.

my bicycle riding spree ended soon after it started, when i was hit in the left side by a fifty something guy doing fourty miles an hour out of a gas station, driving a ford explorer. i'm too tired right now to go into much more detail, but i'm doing all right now. my leg healed up and for the most part i can walk fine on it. but i'm surviving.

work sucks. well, not the work. the people who i have to cater to. i never realized just the level of my misanthropy until i got into food service. i'm ever looking for some way to get money with a minimal amount of work. perhaps i can find myself a sugar daddy. hm.

my evenings have been spent lately with jackie at the nearby Laser Tag arena. we started doing this shortly after i got hit; i jokingly told her this was my physical therapy. we're such big losers. we're there almost every night, even though our budgets really shouldn't allow for it. and last night we decided that we're going to form a team, and join the tournaments that'll be happening in a few months. actually, we're pretty good. jackie and i have been developing some sort of psychic connection. i find that amusing and ironic, considering how i hated her for three years before i started to stand her company.

but it's eerie. we finish each other's sentences, we know what the other's thinking. the other people have noticed it and comment on it often. but hey, if it helps us sneak up on somebody to shoot them, then woo. i'll take every advantage i can.

anyway, i'm gonna go, because we're about to run out to that lovely arena again in a bit to try and snag some people for our team. i'll try to update more often, because now i have internet access again, albeit belonging to someone else and slow as hell.

sigh, i miss my cable modem. goodnight.

20 April 2002 at 3:41 pm | No Comments »
the daily things