My cousin called me today, unexpectedly. In fact, when she called I was taking a nap and when she said her name I totally had no idea who she was. I thought she was a representative from one of my temp agencies calling for me. But no, it was her.

The last time I saw her was Christmas of 2000. One year before I moved out, almost exactly. That was the last time we talked. It was great to hear from her again.

I believe she was twelve when I was born. So she experienced all of my childhood. She watched all of my developments, and she was there for everything.

I remember going over to my aunt's house many times so she could babysit me. I remember sleeping over at her house when she moved out and started going to college. I remember how she was always there to give me advice when I was younger.

I've missed her incredibly. We were unbelievably close when I was younger, but unfortunately time got in the way and we drifted apart. She lives in California now, and has children of her own. She's become a professional photographer, which made me happy, because she was working towards that the last time we spoke. In fact I considered getting her to do headshots for me at one time. But she had so many nice things to say about me. She said she wanted to let me know that she was proud of me for moving, she told me she understood why I decided to leave home. If nothing else, we were held together by our common bond of our fucked up families and stressful childhoods. She told me she was happy to see me so laughing and active, because when she knew me I was shy and introverted. Unfortunately she never got to see me when Kent bust my shell fully open and I really became myself.

The entire time I've been on my own I've been meaning to call her and get in touch with her. But I either never did, or I forgot to. So I'm thrilled that she decided to call me herself. It really made me feel good to hear from her again.

We talked for an hour and a half. On my cell phone's daytime minutes, no less, but it was worth it. It was well worth it to hear her voice again.

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