as mixvio:

So my past few weeks have been insane and frustrating and all over the place. A huge fog has descended over Manhattan, and through the window of my skyscraper office I don't see anything but white and brick.

I have a headache. I have a knot right below my brain stem where I've deposited all of my stress and it's preventing me from standing up straight. All of the out-of-town bosses returned last night and will be in today and I'm really dreading walking around anywhere where they'll see me and pounce with choruses of Excel spreadsheets and expense reports and reimbursement checks for all their pseudo-business lunches.

One of the girls in the office snapped yesterday. I guess everyone figured I'd be the first to lose my mind for whatever reason, but nyet, it was her. So because of that the Chinese boss, who was the only one left in the city, went around asking me a million times how I felt about the job.

I told him I want a raise. This place is beginning to affect my outside life as well. Typically I'm pretty adept at dividing work and home… a job might drive me nuts and I might grumble about going in the night before, but it rarely permeates my daily life and thought outside of the office. This one is though, and I'm getting more and more stressed out.

But my iPod is the sexiest thing ever.

13 January 2005 at 9:41 am | No Comments »
the daily things

as mixvio:

I just give it all the fuck up.

We renamed the company again. Why can't they make up their minds?

10 January 2005 at 11:18 am | No Comments »
bitching

as mixvio:

Okay. I thought the G3000 thing was bad, but it was nothing to prepare me for what transpired today.

We were back to picking a new name for the company, again. Ideas were being tossed around and L.S. and I were all flatly refuting them. So we ran out of the office for twenty minutes to grab some coffee. In that space of time, a decision was made.

When L.S. and I returned, we found Chinese Boss sitting in his chair with a broad grin upon his face. "We've bought a domain," he happily declared.

"What domain?" I asked slowly, placing my coffee on the table lest I scald him 'accidentally.'

"The new company's name is going to be Crimson Codex."

It was worse than anything else I could have possibly imagined. Crimson. Codex. Which bears a striking resemblance to something that also involves the color crimson.

"No, there's no way… no one will connect it to that," Chinese Boss says desperately.

"Oh? You think?" I bring him next door to the room full of girls and calmly disclose the new name of our company. The high pitched screams are enough to scare off the birds perched on the windowsill.

So in the end we settled (rather, I resigned myself to not care anymore and let them choose whatever they wanted because I was going to refer to the company by its old name anyway no matter what) on something that's still two points shy of Ass Fuckingly Stupid, but marginally better than Crimson Codex. Good lord almighty.

9 January 2005 at 6:06 pm | No Comments »
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as mixvio:

I called my credit card company earlier this week and asked them nicely to increase my limit by a thousand dollars. I thought it was an excercise in futility, because I have no credit and I've only had the card a couple of months, but much to my suprise they agreed to increase it by eight hundred. So ofcourse I ran out and spent it right away.

I got myself a lovely new 40 gigabyte iPod, which I have wanted forever and am making much use of. Already I've got about 5 gigs of songs on there and I'm not finished with all my cds yet. Bwahahah.

8 January 2005 at 2:42 pm | No Comments »
the daily things

as mixvio:

So the mission of this week is to rename the company I work at. Rightfully so, because its current title resembles something that monsieur L. Ron Hubbard would've thought up. But our company has nothing to do with Scientology, and we think our clientele might get confused.

All week we've been brainstorming. My bosses gave us the exceedingly specific criteria of, "We want something elegant," to go on, so quite understandably we've got nothing.

My desk is sandwiched between my chinese boss' and my coworker, L.S., who I love dearly and would tickle. But today we've all been kind of frazzled. With the holidays finally over, the bustle has ended, but the projects we put on hold for the rush are now quickly approaching their deadlines, so we're playing a game of rabid catchup.

The renaming is one such project. With brochures set to go to the printer next month, despite having no content, no website, and no new name, we're all running around like headless chickens trying to figure something out.

"I've always liked Italian words," L.S. says. "I think we should translate something."

"[Name of chinese boss' business partner] wants to use something technical… like G3000 or something."

The color leeches itself from my face. "Oh dear god no," I say. "That's horrifying." Out of the corner of my eye I see L.S. pull up an online translation site.

"Well, we have other choices, we're not just using that one."

"Lusso," she chimes in.

"What choices?" I ask flatly.

"Corsa."

"Well, we're also looking at Blue Vermillion, Air Blue…."

"Aeroplano."

"Christ, what is wrong with all of you?"

So needless to say we haven't decided on a name yet. And to think the man had the audacity to suggest that he didn't know if I was creative enough to think of the name myself.

6 January 2005 at 1:53 pm | No Comments »
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as mixvio:

I staged a coup today at work.

You see, when I was originally hired into this company some months ago, I was under the impression I was working for one person at one company. The actuality of the situation is that I'm working for three people who own two physical companies and a slew of name-only subsidiaries. But I didn't know that until my first day.

So initially I worked just for one company, and was the mostly-personal assistant to the Big Gay Boss (not the chinese one). Which was a task in and of itself. The first weekend of the first week of my job granted me with a total of sixty emails over the course of two days, to be found (much to my sinking horror) on Monday morning.

The second company is much like the one I work for, except that they're next door. Recently they've been complaining because they want to hire their own administrative assistant (which is what I do) for the various things that they don't have time for around there. But my boss (the chinese one), being cheap, had the brilliant idea to just have me work half the week in one office and half the week in the other, thereby splitting my time and energy in half while doubling my work load. So I'm obviously, like, totally thrilled.

The problem, though, isn't the ridiculous amount of duty they've just thrown on top of me.

The problem is the insanity of the people I work for.

For all of the things that make me twitch with Big Gay Boss, they are identical in the CEO of the second company, who I now also report to. So yesterday was the first day of this mixvio-union, and I come into the office today to find a total of a hundred emails between the two of them.

I can't take it. So myself and the other coworkers, who're also annoyed and perturbed with the anal compulsiveness of the three of them, had a coup.

In the end it worked out well, the two of them are backing off of their Blackberry consumption and I get a raise, effective next month. Sometimes bitching does pay off.

5 January 2005 at 2:54 pm | No Comments »
bitching

So it's with a mixed bag of emotions that I post this entry.

I have decided, not today but today to implement, to go ahead and push the buttons and type the line of code that will effectively suicide this website. I do this for different reasons than I have in the past. The end this time is real (very probably), but good.

I've shut the site down for weeks or months before out of boredom, frustration, annoyance, lack of inspiration, and months of no publishings. Aside from the last, none of these really hold sway now.

No, the real reason this page is going away now is because I have a mission. I'm serious about this non-profit thing. I'm serious about the work I plan to do now. Hopefully some of that seriousness is transmutable to those of you who've known me long enough.

The fact of the matter is, if things go the way I'm hoping and planning, soon I will have this organization. And following that theme, if things go the way I'm hoping it will become extremely large and formidable.

And quite frankly it'll do me absolutely no good to have people inadvertently find this place while searching for information about that organization. And it'll do me absolutely no good to try and solicit donations when the donate-ees can find this page and read about the guy who gave me really bad head or spasmed in his sleep, or the time I committed a violent act of public vandalism after throwing over an antiabortion display, or the time I auditioned for a porno, or the time– you get the point.

I just don't need these things to come up. That's not to say that I'm ashamed of any of these things or acts or occurrences. But I really need to start making it more difficult for the enemies I plan to make to find dirt about me.

So, that having been said, this is goodbye. I've still got the domain and the space for another two years, so I might resurface in a more anonymous sense. But for now, this is the end of Frost.

I have no regrets, you guys have always made me feel good with your comments and compliments and gifts and threats. So I leave this place a happy one.

3 January 2005 at 10:47 pm | No Comments »
hear ye!

as mixvio:

I will write (in here, in my real journal) a min. of four times a week, aiming for daily entries.

I will be nicer to the boys I've slept with and have under my thumb.

I won't use my powers for evil.

I won't tell my boss that he's fired from the Company Name Choosing extravaganza because he can't come up with an idea fer shit.

Even though I'm emaciated, I will start working out again so I can have abs for another summer.

I will cut down the amount of times I yell at stupid people on the street to just three incidents a week.

I'll have bad sex less.

2 January 2005 at 11:04 am | No Comments »
introspection

as mixvio:

You can call me mixvio. No, that's not my real name.

For now, the intention of this page is to be rather chronicle-esque for my day to day life and egocentricies. I'll do my best to illuminate the backstory to my life as best I can, but bear in mind I've kept numerous journals over the years and I forget sometimes which details need to be expressly stated.

For the basics:

I live in New York City.

I'm twentyish.

I'm a big gay boy.

I work at a specialized travel agency, doing specialized travel things.

That's all I can come up with right now that can qualify as basic. Hah.

1 January 2005 at 9:37 am | No Comments »
the daily things