It would seem that after three or four years of not dating anyone longer than a week or two, three if I was lucky, I have a boyfriend again.

Though this one has more potential than previous attempts have. For one, he doesn't live in NYC. He lives in Australia, though he travels constantly for work (being one of those weird dork people who's managed to churn a living out of Second Life and "Virtual Worlds" in general, which would be where I originally met this person three or four years ago), and is within decent range of NYC pretty regularly. So I won't be inundated with him, vice versa, which works out well considering I have that whole "need space you're suffocating me stop talking to me" issue still, and the distance coupled with not having access to immediate gratification works to offset absence and fond hearts, plus my interest being kept along when I am not getting what I want.

That was a lot of words strung together in ways that aren't quite sentences, but I guess that's what being lovestruck does or something.

Anyway I adore him. And as I said I've known him a long time, though Feelings only started developing recently between us, and the big reason I think this has hope is that omigod we haven't had a single fight since we met, ever, which has to be a record or something.

Ofcourse he'll be here this week for a few days, and the plan now is for me to visit Australia for my first international (Canada doesn't count for that right?) holiday evar in April for two to three weeks. So I'm sure there's plenty of opportunity for us to want to kill each other in the coming months.

Australian accent. Mmm.

25 February 2008 at 7:54 am | 4 Comments »
the daily things, australia, australian accent, boyfriend, dating, Second Life, virtual worlds

After an experience of emo, followed up with a lot of confused feelings and self-inflicted upset, the subject of the previous entry and I sat down and discussed a lot of stuff, and though the conversation could have been out of a script for High School Musical 3 (apparently there's already a 3 ) High School Musical 4, I've rounded out today feeling more bubbly than I have regarding boys for a long while.

Certain much is still left in the air, and I don't think it could be construed that anything was resolved really, but we've started the first few steps towards figuring all that out. And as he put it, it's not something that needs to be decided today.

That's it. That's all I wanted to share.

19 February 2008 at 10:41 pm | 2 Comments »
the daily things, boys, bubbly, dating, emo, feelings

It should be said that there are actually drawbacks to having anonymous visibility. And keeping a site where you post everything. Because there are some things you want to post but self-censor because of the off-chance that they'll be read by the person they're about, and you're too melancholy and emo to let that happen.

What's worse is that I feel like I'm making this all harder on myself just for the sake of making it feel harder.

But I keep staring at "Miss you already" and feel depressed.

13 February 2008 at 12:53 am | 1 Comment »
introspection, emo

Photos from my very public ski-devirginizing haz been posted to the series of tubes. It was a lot of fun. We didn't get to snowboard because the rental place was all out of everything but children sizes, so we went skiing instead, which actually worked out better because apparently I'm really good at it. I've always had really good balance but I was surprising everyone there, including the people we went with and the trainers watching. By the second day I did an intermediate-level slope, so all-in-all I think I progressed nicely. The balance thing worked against me at first though, as while I could stay upright through a lot of shit (and really the only times I fell down were when people darted or stopped in front of me and I tried to not hit them) I simply COULD NOT STOP at first. I managed to pick up incredible amounts of speed that I couldn't dissipate, which sent me down the slope like a bullet. Thankfully I picked up a way to break eventually and had some more confidence going from there.

Anyway, pics, I promised! The place we went to operates a shuttle service out of NYC regularly that's actually pretty cheap, so I think I have a new weekend hobby.

11 February 2008 at 11:42 pm | No Comments »
shutterbugs, the daily things, devirginizing, skiing, snowboarding, weekend hobby

So I finally made it in around nine PM. I'm somewhere north of New Paltz and Woodstock, so further north in the world than I've ever been barring Canada. The drive wasn't as bad as I had expected, though definitely longer, but it was a relatively relaxing bus excursion.

Anyway there's no cell access here at all. I'm in a dead zone. Not just bad reception, none; it's really as if I were in the subway. It was a little scary at first coming up here and trying to check my email and getting the alert that there was no EDGE, but then that vanished and my cell phone is now an expensive mp3 player. However there is wifi so I haven't lost the century yet.

But once we got up to the mountains, which are the Catskills I presume, I accidentally happened to look up at the night sky, and it took me several moments to realize what I was seeing. I am a city boy, have only ever lived in cities, have never known anything but cities. And what I saw, which I didn't recognize at first, was a sky full of stars. Millions of them, clusters and singles and various sizes and shapes. All over the place. It was shocking and completely beautiful. Never before have I been subjected to the universe's random gorgeousness. I wish I could've taken a photo of it.

I was standing out on the driveway gawking in the 10 degree weather with my jaw slack like a little kid.

9 February 2008 at 1:42 am | 3 Comments »
the daily things, catskills, mountains, night sky, sky full of stars, snowboarding

I am currently on a bus heading to a ski lodge in upstate New York. Why, you ask?

Well I was invited to go snowboarding and in my brilliance I said yes.

Now, mind you, I have only ever been ice skating before. On a tiny rink in New Orleans. When I was 11.

So basically what I'm trying to say is that I'm going to die, but I love you.

8 February 2008 at 6:38 pm | No Comments »
the daily things, die young, ski lodge, snowboarding, upstate new york

Never thought I'd say it.

Can someone wake me up when the election's over?

4 February 2008 at 2:02 am | 1 Comment »
bitching, bored, politics